Another one… God why

The news is a constant reminder of all that is wrong in this world and all that requires Prayer and God’s divine intervention. Mothers losing their children, children losing parents, people losing their lives because of ignorance, selfishness and just straight up inequality of races.

We all come from the earth and to the earth we shall return, meaning my skin color should NOT influence how you treat meā€¦God bless all of the ones taken too soon by Police brutality. They are committed to protect and serve and clearly we are filling some of their minds with improper mindsets that lead to this excessive abuse of their power. I pray for those Good cops to keep on doing Good. Because we Need you. I also pray for those who have been corrupted to harbor hate or disdain for people whom differ from you, may God bring you clarity and help you see the error of your ways.

To the families of every single person killed by these outrageous acts, May God have mercy and bring you peace, but also give you strength to rise and be Bold and fight the good fight for Equality, for Peace, for Love. We need more Love, peace and more of God. Less hate. More understanding.

We should not live in Fear of one another, but rather help one another. Friends stay safe, stay strong. Peace be with you.

The mere fact that people are not more outraged by these recent deaths frightens me to my core. People have become so disassociated from one another that we cannot feel true empathy for others..we cannot connect like we need to with others around us. That is the fact that is frightening, we Long for connection, but fail to make true connections. We need to wake up! We need to see the error of our ways and fix the path were on.

Prayer and action is needed. We need faith, we need hope. We need Love. We need God. Nothing and no one can defeat the power of God. The power of Love. The unbelievable power of a deep connection! We need to do better, for our sons. Our daughters. For ourselves.

Can we make a pact?

Alright. Here goes nothing…

Let us all repeat after me… I will not allow myself to come out of Quarantine a broken person, worse than I started, or less motivated than ever. This time has been a gift to reset, reboot, and rekindle some passions of ours, talents, unearth new capabilities we held deep within.

We should not come out of this bitter or upset. The time away at home was a time we will never again see, God willing, in our lifetimes again. This time is unique to us in an era where creating content, art, media is so accessible, we literally could create and or do just about anything from the comfort of our homes. So much so that an incredible Kindness movement is taking place via Social Media and it is becoming a reality in our Actual non-virtual world.

So let’s do it. Let’s make a pact that once this is all over. We will continue to be or strive to be the people with passion. Purpose. Motivation..focus that we were in quarantine. I know it has its ups and downs. But I promise it will all work out in the end.

Social distancing work and Life

Today’s an odd day I “left” work early only to find myself getting a call that my Mom in Law was not feeling well…

To the point medical intervention would be needed. It was like my day was meant to be short to help deal with some of this added stress and anxiety. As Covid rampages through our state, that means hospitals are cracked down on visitor policies. So she was taken Alone to the hospital. It has been hours and were still awaiting news.

Social distancing the newest hot topic among many annoying topics for those who cannot comprehend that this virus can be fatal for so many. Seemingly healthy people are very ill and some are dying. My mom in law is not only elderly. She is recovering from Chemo. She is battling a host of other things amongst the fact she lives with a pacemaker. She is the bearer of life for my husband. She is the light in my daughters eyes…and we are helpless to know anything.

Hold your loved ones close, stay home if you can. Stay safe. You dont know what will come of this, but the last thing you need is regrets for exposing and putting someone you love at risk. We’ve taken all the precautions and this is unrelated to covid, but now she is in the epicenter of the worst cases of it while trying to be treated for something else.

All we’ve got is prayers and hope that everyone is doing their job to the best of their ability and then some. To help keep her safe from getting anything else. And to help her get better.

Busy busy week

This week started with birthdays last week, then my niece turned 2 yesterday. We sang happy birthday via video chat. It felt weird but so wonderful to see my family. Then today my baby brother turns 16!!! Amazing right. We’ll he got his biggest birthday wish. A Birthday Twin. We welcomed my newest niece just a few minutes ago!!! She’s perfect

God bless us everyone. Life doesn’t stop because we are in quarantine. It becomes infinitely more interesting in how we channel the remarkable joys of Love. Life and family.

Hope you are staying safe. God bless!!!

Rejoined the Workforce

Covid-19 is kicking our asses here in CT. We’ve been quarantined for weeks and it continues to grow. I was out of work for 2 weeks, due to high risk. They did extend the leave for me automatically however growing stir crazy, I asked again if they’d allow me to work from home. Finally they said yes. So yesterday I went back into my office building which generally houses 700 people yesterday it held but a few dozen people. My team was half gone. The rest leaving yesterday to work from home too. I am grateful for having a job that covered me and paid me while adjusting this. Making changes to our process on the fly. Banking is no joke friends we literally never shut down and this covid kicked us into gear.

Good luck to you all. Blessings

And…there goes another one

Anyone else feel like this year has been a giant blur. Seriously nothing good has come of it as of yet.

January we started w consolidating debt and chemo treatments for a loved one.

February was just settling out more things and just playing catch up still with Holidays.

March was a blur of dates, closures and the. Baby turned 2 but we couldn’t do anything or go anywhere. And then Bam its April.

I think the April fool’s joke is this covid19 and the quarantine that wont end anytime soon.

I love being home, blessed enough to still be paid, but this is crazy. Can a Girl get a cup of coffee or salad and be able to enjoy it in peace. Lol. Grateful for our health and grateful we are safe thus far. But man could I use a good chiropractor visit, 2hr massage and 4hr nap without hearing yelling babies in the background. Just saying mama needs some Me time. I am running on an empty tank here.

Hubby works in healthcare Hospital, meaning he continues to withdraw the Little adult human interaction day by day for fear of bringing anything to us. But my tank is running low and I am nearing breaking or so it feels like. Some days I feel refreshed. This is not one…

Hope you can remain hopeful, happy, safe, healthy throughout this. Remember the many blessings and stay the course. While our journeys may vary to some degree we are All in this together.

Mental Space…

Hello, hope this post finds you well. Healthy, happy, safe, surrounded by loved ones. May you be financially stable and blessed by all measures.

I don’t know about you, but this Covid is kicking my butt…I have been home now for 11 consecutive days, and I gotta tell you my brain is wearing thin, my patience is low. I am beginning to feel helpless. My mind is not ok, and It is reflecting itselt outwards towards my family. I don’t like it, but I also literally cannot help it. I go from happy to snapping at everything in 2 seconds. Anyone wrestling with this lack of Personal Mental space?

Everywhere I turn there is someone. Husband or kids. Someone wants or needs something at all times it feels like. I barely get any time to myself and I am mentally drained unlike anything I have ever experienced in my life.

I will seek resources from work this week, I am not working due to High Risk conditions and thankfully work for a company that is paying for this. I feel unproductive and it is affecting me in all senses of my being. I am a woman of Faith so prayers are lifted daily multiple times, but In human land, I am struggling. I am annoyed to the point where I don’t desire to connect with anyone. I want to retreat and be alone. With several weeks ahead, I fear this will progressively get worse.

If you have felt or are feeling this way. What have you done? I tried telling my husband and he looked at me like I had 3 heads. He is working reluctantly but he gets out. He can drive alone and have his own time. Even at home. He plays video games and enjoys his own personal space without being interrupted… meanwhile I just want to cry.

Anyone got tips? Words? Something? A girl could use any words. Thanks.

Stay strong friends. Stay safe. We are all in this together. And if were All alone. Were together in that too.