Weekend getaway to a dream location.
Island bound, all inclusive fun, and enjoyment.
The perfect scene to make things romantic and fresh and exciting, instead i got to wait around while cigar shops catered to this man….
I sat with friends instead of with my lover, I danced with strangers and not my love. Such a fun weekend to reconnect with friends, but in sight also disconnect from him even further.
I feel lonely on the most romantic vacation ive ever taken.
Dreams do come true just not how we planned…
We are 5 and half months into this 10 month journey. I have thankfully been feeling a bit better now… back is sore as heck with no end in sight.
Emotionally however, i am on the world’s most interesting ride. I am excited and overjoyed and then my spouse…makes me feel underwhelmed and undervalued and unappreciated. Hormones make it feel more so than it really is, He is honestly a wonderful whom i have now shared 13 years of my life with. He always goes above and beyond for me, but with this baby he seems to be truly clueless. For our 1st pregnancy he wasnt around much he worked two jobs at that time. We were also a bit younger…
I just need a good back rub and to be reminded that this is all but temporary. I enjoy seeing family and friends, but i am so easily overwhelmed internally that i cannot fathom to do too many visits on one time. My work life is taking a hit too, and these things though I know are normal make me feel very out of my element. I love being.pregnant, just not the feelings that accompany it.
Today, i just want to have a good cry but i honestly have no real good reason to except for this incredible back pain..
Haven’t been on here in a while… But we are thrilled to share that we are still pregnant 5 months and we are having a girl.
Our daughter is thrilled and excited and over the moon to become a big sister. We have had some scares since finding out, since making it public, since harboring hope. Thankfully these have not come at a price that would cost our family another loss. Baby girl still to be named is growing well and healthy and strong and proving to become healthy full-term baby. I’ve had some difficult weeks but thankfully and moving forward I’ve been feeling well.
This has become a new chapter for our family and has helped to build a closer Bond between my husband and I and our daughter I should say daughters. We are blessed, joyful, hopeful, and excited for the months to come. Felt I should catch everyone up on this page and let them know how things were progressing. To those that read this thank you for your well wishes, thank you for your kind words, thank you for your love and support. Experiencing a loss and then getting the opportunity to experience a new life comes with terrifying fear that you may relive a loss again, it has been the support of our family and friends that have helped to make this and even more joyous occasion. For that we will forever be grateful. Thank you.