When your mind is battered…

There come times in our lives when the little good we see is taken from us suddenly.
These very times take us to a dark and lonely place within ourselves…
Today I sit in this dark and lonely place.
No one can keep me company because today I am bad company…
I don’t seek to talk or listen very well…what I hear is any sad dark lonely thoughts and add those to my own…
However in these times I find that it is where I soul search…
Being pushed out of my comfort zone I rise to the challenge…
I rise to the occasion and find new joys in my torments.
I know all sorrow will pass by me….
But today I need to cry…
I need to scream
I need to get myself back to a happy place.
A new happy. …a new me.
A new place…a new experience await…though I was very happy where I was…
I know God does not move one hair on our head without having a plan….
So blindly reluctantly I will have faith that all will be well….
My spirit will not be broken…
I will bring people to my level. ..because misery hath no room here….
Time of change we embrace you…please be kind because my mind has been through many challenges already and it is tired.
God my life to you I commend…please renew my strength increase my peace my wisdom…make me a reflection of your love.
Make me strong lord because right now in so tired…. mentally physically emotionally I cannot bear any more….

Firsts…

This weekend will be filled with a few firsts for our baby girl.

We went tonight to her first movie in a theater: free birds.
She behaved so well loved the film even drummed along to some parts.
Makes me so happy to be a mom of such an awesome kid.

Tomorrow will be our first bowling adventure should be fun. 🙂

Isn’t it ironic don’t you think….

Chicks be complaining and bitching about how other chicks aka “hoes” be taking their men…
How they crept in and took what was theirs. …
Then go on a hate rampage on men….
Yet these same chicks who demand to be called ladies go out with compromised men… hence turning the exact scenario done to them onto another lady.
Look if you don’t wanna be burned then don’t play with fire.
Yes there are good men…but not those who belong to other women. Stay the hell away and stay away from rumors…
If it looks bad even if it isn’t bad…its bad in the mouths and ears of others who don’t know….
You may not care what they think but someday you will find someone who you Do care what they think and if your rep was tainted when you got there you have already lost half the battle to finding and keeping someone worthwhile…

Class it up. Shut it up. Ease up on your “friends” nights that really mean getting drunk while wearing hardly anything.
Being a Lady means being someone who leaves something to be desired more than in the sheets or on the dancefloor…
Someone intellectual…of integrity and dignity and of peace love and generosity.
Someone with kindness yet stern to her truths…someone who does not easily waiver in decisions…
A woman of conviction truth and power is a Lady.