Mental Space…

Hello, hope this post finds you well. Healthy, happy, safe, surrounded by loved ones. May you be financially stable and blessed by all measures.

I don’t know about you, but this Covid is kicking my butt…I have been home now for 11 consecutive days, and I gotta tell you my brain is wearing thin, my patience is low. I am beginning to feel helpless. My mind is not ok, and It is reflecting itselt outwards towards my family. I don’t like it, but I also literally cannot help it. I go from happy to snapping at everything in 2 seconds. Anyone wrestling with this lack of Personal Mental space?

Everywhere I turn there is someone. Husband or kids. Someone wants or needs something at all times it feels like. I barely get any time to myself and I am mentally drained unlike anything I have ever experienced in my life.

I will seek resources from work this week, I am not working due to High Risk conditions and thankfully work for a company that is paying for this. I feel unproductive and it is affecting me in all senses of my being. I am a woman of Faith so prayers are lifted daily multiple times, but In human land, I am struggling. I am annoyed to the point where I don’t desire to connect with anyone. I want to retreat and be alone. With several weeks ahead, I fear this will progressively get worse.

If you have felt or are feeling this way. What have you done? I tried telling my husband and he looked at me like I had 3 heads. He is working reluctantly but he gets out. He can drive alone and have his own time. Even at home. He plays video games and enjoys his own personal space without being interrupted… meanwhile I just want to cry.

Anyone got tips? Words? Something? A girl could use any words. Thanks.

Stay strong friends. Stay safe. We are all in this together. And if were All alone. Were together in that too.

Passing time

Tiktoks galore and goofy sessions..these 2 are a riot and dad loves to rile them.up. Praying for everyone to remain healthy and safe. Thank you to all the front line people in hospitals, the service people offering groceries and deliveries around to all. The mailpeople, everyone who is deemed essential and leaves home daily to help support the community at large. Stay positive. Stay safe. Stay home if you can. #covid19 #quarantine2020

Surviving 2020

We started this thing called 2020 with so much hope and excitement. As each week progresses it is evident what we hoped for and what IS are 2 very different things.

Reality being this year has short of kicked our asses. Business is slow, sickness has struck, everything is a mess. Nothings smooth or easy, nothings flowing naturally. Everything feels like a chore, a big busy to do list that never ends.

Covid 19 was that extra bullet this year needed to beat us into submission. We still yearn and hope for better things, because faith has stayed strong, but sone days when exhaustion kicks in, its hard to see or hope for what is ahead.

I hope you are all coping and feeling better than all this, i pray you remain healthy and steadfast on your goals for 2020. We can still make it happen. I believe in us all

World post intro of Covid19

How are you coping? Are you in a highly affected area? What are your kids up to?

We are home day like 400000 it feels like. Kids are good. Adjusting just fine. Husband still had to work hospital employee, my jobs open but I am on leave due to health risks. We are adjusting day by day. Schools are up in the air closed til end of April. We are stir crazy sometimes. Hopeful for better days. Staying home to prevent the spread.

Annoyed some people still act like it is a joke. It isn’t a joke to us. Exposed due to work, protecting ourselves. Our kids and our extended elderly family and health risk family. Just praying and hoping each day we get closer to what will be the new normal.

Good luck to you all. Share how you’re killing time

Love to hear happy fun news. Joined tiktok thanks to my almost 10yr old. Enjoying seeing people even if from afar.

Yesterday we took a drive… it was nice to get out.

Stay safe friends. Xoxo

Good ol’ CoronaVirus

Yes. It is likely the trending topic amongst social media, news outlets and world news in general…Coronavirus aka Covid-19.

Let’s take it from the beginning guys. This thing broke out in China…we all heard of it to some extent. Then it blew up, thousands of cases sprung out in a quick period of time. People thought the precautions as we began to see Cases in the U.S. was a joke. Like nothing bad can ever happen here.

I will share this my husband. Works in a hospital and has for nearly a decade or more. He saw the writing on the wall long before the news started advising for possible quarantine conditions. He shopped and prepped our little home for the worst scenario possible, being home unable to leave. Can I tell y’all I thought this dude Lost his shit, and then literally within days of our bulk of supplies arriving and us putting everything away, the news started sharing more and more cases, and discussions of school closures sprang out. And lo and behold, we were advised to Stay home… thank goodness my hubby didnt care that I thought he was crazy, he went ahead and prepared for our family. More so than hopefully we will need, but all useful consumable items we can use.

This panic setting in, shouldn’t make us impulse buy everything in sight. But rather plan accordingly and buy what we need not excess. Elderly and fixed income folks don’t have infinite funds and need us to not clear all the shelves. We need to take it seriously, we need to be calm, we need to be rational. We need to think beyond ourselves and remember we are ALL in this together and as such we need to think for the betterment and protection of ALL not just ourselves.

So stay kind. Stay safe. Stay healthy. Stay clean. And remember to think Beyond yourself. Our livelihood and communities depend on it.

We blog of Life. Well let’s chat Netflix’s The trials of Gabriel

First and foremost, may God rest his little sweet soul and have Him in his arms in Heaven.

I followed this case back when it made headlines in the mid 2010s. I was a new mom myself and could NOT for the life of me Fathom how anyone would ever hurt or allow anyone else to hurt their baby to the extent of Gabriel’s injuries at death.

While some will say the Documentary is biased because It presumes guilt, we Know by court ruling and a Jury that there was undoubtedly guilt, and to be guilty of such a horrendous crime against an innocent child you must be some kind of sick evil being.

No parent who Loves their child willingly causes them harm. I die a little inside when my girls get hurt doing every day kid things, let alone me being the cause of the pain!

This woman gave this baby up!!! How does DCFS or the courts return him to someone who had cut ties with their own flesh and blood for 8 years. That is Not and could Not be “preservation of family” if the family did not exist. This was straight up negligence by the department, the fact that calls came in announcing severe injuries and risk concerns should have at minimum warranted the child’s temporary removal of her custody to properly assess the situation. I am aware departments have guidelines and rules and things they have to abide by, but when Flags are raised All over the place, it warrants action rather than it being an afterthought.

My heart aches for this boy, for his siblings. And for their extended family whom suffered viewing this and calling it in, but nothing was done.

Dcfs failed, courts failed, social workers failed, Police Sheriffs failed, neighbors failed. Everyone failed Gabriel. We have Got to do better for these babies. We have got to do better!!!

If you’re UNhappy go ahead post it… *NOT*

Guys…PSA… plain and simple, if you are Unhappy with where your life is going, YOU are in control of the choices and decisions that have led you there… or will get you Out. I mean we all have a Vent moment where we put out in the world things to be validated that we are not crazy… bit every single moment of every day we shouldn’t #fakehappiness i mean really, there should be things, people, events, happenings that bring some sort of Joy into our lives… if not friend, please Evaluate your life and Find your joy. It isn’t just a “catchphrase” we use to tidy up our homes. It is a true statement for our soul… finding our Joy means finding the center and developing our happiness from that. So Please do not go on a rant every day, internalize and get better. I’ll pray for you… that you find Joy. Everyone deserves Joy.